Solidarity

I do not love her,
To say it it's a lie,
But in the eyes of her solidarity,
She will never be mine,
It's a hard fight to cope with,
And for me you'd think a sinch,
But there's only so much punches,
My weary heart can take,
I'm fed up of fighting,
Being kicked to the curb,
And always forcing smiles,
Enough with the I'm ok's,
Enough with the lies,
Every day I struggle, 
A knife, a lake, a bridge,
What difference will it make?
I'm always left alone,
No frirnds, no heart, no home, 
It's always taken from me,
And every time I fight,
But I'm done fighting,
Because I always end up in the same place,
Empty, alone, unwanted, unloved,
Why must when it's all wrong?
You'll only be lied to for satisfaction,
Until the curtain is finally called
It's all a lie,
This happiness, 
It's only momentary,
It doesn't last,
It just leads to misery,
Leads to regretting the past,
Your life even,
Makes you wonder why you're here,
Because it's pointless,
Because it hurts,
Because it is,
So no I won't be ok,
No I won't go on,
Because I'm done fighting