I suffer in solitude not knowing what to do next
Which path to choose
Words escape me and I find describing what’s in my heart impossible
Absence no longer makes the heart grow fonder it makes me indifferent
I coarse through each day trapped in circumstance
My heart has no purpose my feelings numb
Not one to put myself first always thinking of the needs of others
I long for being alone for being in company is lonely
My mind a mirage, my body motionless
Wanting to run to infinity
Longing for a meaningful embrace
A lasting connection
But thought is suicide and putting myself first means hurt for others
My values make honesty hard
But with courage will come happiness
As the tears fall